Time Spent

I have spent
enough time
being afraid.

I used to think
I wasn't strong enough
to survive
I was so tired.

I have spent
enough time
feeling lonely.

I used to think
I wasn't strong enough
to live.
I was so lost.

I have spent
enough time
being angry.

I used to think
I wasn't strong enough
to let joy blossom.
I was so empty.

I have spent
enough time
feeling hopeless.

I used to think
I wasn't strong enough
to breathe.
I was so unsure.

I have spent
enough time
not being
who I was meant
to be.

I am strong
enough.

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